I love flowers (though I score very low on the gardening aptitude scale)... and I've enjoyed two beautiful bouquets and multiple collections of various non-homogenous groupings from my little sweeties since we began this journey of miscarriage. And the journey does continue, though God's hand is so clearly felt and the tears sometimes fall at the strangest times.
Last Monday and Tuesday were physically demanding days, and when I returned for another ultrasound yesterday, the doctor said I still haven't passed the sac, though it is shrinking. I think my doctor is wonderful ... he knows how we feel about children and trusting the Lord...but in his effort to encourage me, he pointed out the high percentages that would indicate that this was not "my" fault, but likely a "bad egg" (due to my age) UGH!
A bad egg???
As I watched yet another swollen momma navigate the weight of her soon-to-be-born baby while I sat in the car alone, I just couldn't place a "bad egg" in God's economy. Meih! I have to choose faith, and I have to move forward.
"For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise You for I am fearfully and wonderfully made...my frame was not hidden from You when I was made in secret...Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them" Psalm 139:13-16
Ready for some farmhouse cuteness??? Everything else just keeps moving forward...
...and after seventeen years, I'm on the verge of diaper-less days. Not looking forward to that...
Thanks again for all your prayers...I have been so encouraged by your comments!
Love,
Kathy
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I assume that was Dr. T in all his tactfulness? He's truly one of a kind, but I love the guy. Remember the slurpee run? Hugs to you and I'll call you when the Math U See order is in (a couple weeks yet) so we can get together and give you a real hug in person.
Love,
Sher
Praying for you! I've been on that journey too, it is hard, but our God is stronger and will carry you through.
Love you Kathy!! Hugs, hugs hugs hugs hugs~
You've been on my heart and in my prayers.
Diaper less days...I agree....as inconvenient as they can be...they will be missed. But don't worry grand dumplings will soon be filling your home and you will get to practice diaper changing on them :-)
Love your cutie pie on the seat!!
~Cinnamon
God doesn't make any mistakes! He knows what He's doing.
Such a cute picture:)) She'll be officially embarassed in a few more years!
I am so sorry for what you are going through. This is not easy I know I too have had this happen twice. My prayers that you may be comforted and feel all the love and warm hugs that are sent to you via comments, emails and prayer. Hugs, Bobbi Jo
Hugs coming your way. I agree, no bad egg. That's not the Lord.
I love the pics. She is too precious.
The Lord chose you to usher a soul straight into His arms. You are blessed and this isn't about finding faults or making mistakes. Praying for your wellness and continuing comfort... ♥
I have a wonderful pro-life dr that loves big families and encourages them--and he says the same thing to me, "Bad Eggs"!!
Yes, you are right, there are no bad eggs in Our Lord's plan.
And, I totally feel the same as you about no diapers. I have been changing them for nearly 21 years and always having two and sometimes three in diapers and I still don't want to think about potty training my 2 1/2 yr old. He's not showing any signs and I am happy about that!
Never a bad egg - God doesn't create bad things. Rather this blessing was made to spend just a whisper here on earth & eternity praising HIM.
Praying for you
Renata
Getting old is hard...I have also been told about my body getting older..I cried!
Praying for you,
~~Renee
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