Thank you all for your kind thoughts and prayers this past week. Instead of a cute belly shot (of which I have never done...I don't know why...but plans were well underway to document our Little Angel with the help of resident photographers,
Josh and
Jenna...) I can only share what I am doing. Waiting. The doctor said it's best to go naturally, so I wait and wonder. Next Monday I will return to the office, and though I know I am strong enough to handle the public, I am secretly hoping there are no other pregnant mommas in the waiting room. I'll be fine, I just don't want to see them. Much like last week, stepping out of the chiropractor's office practically into the arms of an adorable, young, very pregnant momma. Just don't feel like it. Not yet.
I thought I could feel the weight of the Little One as I held that sleeper up to my chest...that sweet little baby bottom cupped in my hands and the precious head resting under my chin...that hair so downy soft...
...and then I laid it down empty and shapeless, knowing someday I'll need to put those clothes away. Someday.
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God bless your precious mother-heart. I, too, have traveled that awful road. Our oldest precious daughter died of SIDS at 12-1/2 weeks (she would be 26 this Oct.) & then we had 2 miscarriages in-between her & our next 2 beautiful daughters.
I know that terrible feeling ~ when you see the blood & your heart drops to your toes...I know the waiting...I know the ultra-sound...I know the look on the Dr's face...I know those words...I know the pain & the waiting for "something" to happen. My heart is with you & I am praying for you, dear sister.
II Cor. 2:3-4 ministers to me when I am faced w/hard times. There WILL be a purpose for this.
God is STILL on His Throne.
Blessings from Ohio...Kim<><
I am just catching up with you since John came home....oh Kathy...my heart breaks with you and for you. Your dear little one in the arms of Jesus and you here with an aching heart missing that little cherub.
Praying for you tonight....dear friend~
hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs~
~Cinnamon
I felt a similar feeling for years as I struggled with infertility. Going again and again to the OB/GYN and sitting in a waiting room with so many pregnant mothers... and my tests always negative. Happy for them, but sad for me. It was just so painful. Eventually that hurt was replaced with joy again. Praying for you that your mourning will turn into singing in due time.
Mrs. Regan,
I'm praying for God to comfort you and go before you and shield your tender heart.
I just read your update & am so sorry to hear this ~ please know I'm praying for you
Renata XO
So sorry to hear about your loss. It's never easy, we lost a little one too almost 18 years ago. Praying for you and your family. {{{HUGS}}}
Oh so sorry, and unfortunately I know too well what you are talking about. Seeing the young pregnant mommas sends a bit of sadness to my soul. I am happy for them, because I know the happiness too well also.
Just a few months ago I was waiting to miscarry twins naturally. Such a long wait, but I would put my hand on my womb frequently and that gave me comfort.Many {{hugs}} to you.
I feel your pain, sweet momma. Know that God is holding you in His hands at this time~ His plans are perfect.
Your words are beautiful and full of heart. Our prayers are still with you doing this trying time.
blessings,
Tricia
Hello My Sweet Friend...You are continuously in our thoughts and Prayers....Much LOVE to you and yours...
I know to well your feelings. It is a difficult time to walk through....And I understand the not wanting to see pregnant mommy's right now. I rejoice with each woman that is pregnant for it is a blessing indeed but with repeated losses my arms and body ache to hold another little one and when I see pregnant women I feel the ache and hurt even more....Our God is good and a ever present help in trouble....He is patient and loving and knows we need to grieve...He grieves with us. I am still learning contentment though with where I am with three Beautiful blessings here and 4 little ones with him and waiting on His timing knowing full well I may never carry another one...So contentment is a struggle for me. continued prayers and much love.... ~Erin Young
Mrs. Regan,
My heart just aches to read what you are going through. I'm praying for you and keep looking to Jesus as your source of hope and peace.
Hello dear Cathy,
I am so,so sorry to hear of your loss my friend. I can't imagine what you are feeling. I will be praying and trusting God for His amazing grace, His mercies that are new every morning, comfort, joy and healing to come to you like a balm and a warm, all encompassing blanket to hold you tightly up in His Great and glorious love.
I love you and feel your pain.He loves you so much more than anyone ever could. Know that God has you in His arms of Love and will NEVER let you go.His healing WILL come.Let the name of Jesus fill your heart and mind daily as you think of how good and powerful and great He is. Let His praises be ever on your lips, even so. You are God's beloved child.
In His Grip,
Lydia Hoppman
Oh Mrs. Regan! My heart weeps! Praying still...
Soli Deo Gloria!
-Kyrie<><
Thinking of you lots my friend.
Love,
Sher
My thoughts are with you and your family for the child you never knew, but one day you will and take comfort in that.
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