Lucky Blessed!

There is something to appreciate in the emotional uncertainties of life; something about facing the fear and pain and anxiety that causes me to remember and return to those foundational beliefs of who I am and why I'm here. It is so easy for me to get caught up in the day-to-day activities, deadlines, projects and dreams and lose sight of real purpose. I look at our education and begin to wonder if we're doing "enough", when in reality, life is learning and we are surrounded with fantastic opportunities every day. I look at the endless project list and give up at the thought of ever making headway, when in reality, life is joining hands and working together on a common goal even when nothing gets crossed off the list. I get discouraged when I think of all the improvements I'd like to make to the farm...a larger garden, the determination to weed that larger garden, where could I plant fruit trees and asparagus~and why didn't I do that five years ago??, when in reality, God just provide 88 quarts of strawberries and 12 cases of fresh broccoli. There is paint chipping everywhere, knobs falling off the doors, soil to be tilled, gates to be mended, windows to be replaced...but twice in one week God reminded me through new friends that we have so much to be thankful for. So many people would love to have the children, land, animals, extended family, fresh milk and vegetables (and so much more)...

So I could accomplish more with our schooling, and I could work harder around the home and farm, but what really needs to happen is that gentle tilling in my heart to remember that all I have is a gift from my creator, and that every need His hand supplies. And I am lucky blessed!